Fantasy

being stuck forty miles away from your family sucks. now imagine living by a river and them being there and loosing power and phone lines! Nightmare. I miss my family so much i am so excited that the water has receded and i can continue my life at home. My grandparents have been generous letting me bother them in their quiet suburb home....Ahhhhhhh. I miss my life with the dogs, and chickens, and my little rabbit i have had for the past thirteen fourteen years. Isn't it incredible what 10 inches of rain can do?! I love rainy days....but rainy weeks are another story.

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my life has neever been better! I am happy. content. but am i? could this all be an illusion before my sencored eyes that my life is a hell, covered by a heaven? show me the way lead me down the path in which i can not see.

Well im not "technically out" currently i am waiting on my enrollment information to attend Mizzou High in Columbia, MO i am sooooo excited! YAYAY! the school i previously attended was crap and now i actually might get somewhere in life whereas my previous classmates can continue to spit spit-wads and not learn Anything!

totally excited

totally a new life

totally reborn

totally in control of my future!~

I have to take into account, that i am a person that isnt used to having what i want when i want it. I have an amazing boyfriend, who i wouldnt mind to call my husband. I want him and i have him now...im the luckiest girl ever! I LOVE YOU JOSH!!      

Why is it that you can go to bed at ten at night and still wake up super tired??? i havent figured that out. i hate it. Is there such thing as over sleep??  i want my pillow, my blankey, my pajamas, and my big fuzzy house shoes...mmmmmmm, sounds good!
lol

my faults are perfected.
my perfections are revered
sanity is uncertain
insanity seems so clear
my mind wonders if what is real
is for sure

lost in an illusion
caught up in between
affection is a hate
a wrapped up fancy

Is this a love laced heaven
or the city of the damned
Are we confessing to God
or dancing in his left hand

born with innocence
die with sin
you forget
that you're not forgiven
when you dance between the devils fingers
it is only then
when the fire starts to burn
that you realize

you live a love laced heaven
surrounded by the damned
you dont confess to God
but dance into his left hand

illusions and fantasies
play out in your dreams
your mind is cluttered clean.

chorus

i will never loose myself
the way you lost you
Never to dance in the fire
amazed at its fake beauty.



******** okay so its weird its just a concept i had..kinda freaked myself out, keep me posted with comments. I think i might have something just need some direction!
XOXOXO
SaraH*()*

I closed my eyes last night
a moment before i dream
I thought about things
and how unreal they seem
to be loved for everything
every blemish and flaw
you looked into these blue eyes
and saw what no one else saw

i second guess myself
and i say it never could be true
its all to much to believe in
but i believe in you

you always catch me before i dream
and i spend most of the night thinking of you
how crazy does it seem that i just might love you
i shut my eyes to pretend that you love me 2
then i drift off in my dream
and there you actually do

I was always the girl
who loved to play make-believe
I never thought that i
would live the reality
falling asleep in you arms
is where i am now
Youre mine and I'm yours
yet i never thought how
Holding me here
I'm positive this is where I belong
no more second guessing
you've proved those theories wrong

kissing me when i close my eyes
you have caught me before i dream
the dreams of pretending and the lies

you always catch me before i dream
and i spend most of the night thinking of you
how crazy does it seem that i just might love you
i shut my eyes to KNOW that you love me
then i drift off in my dream
and there you know i love you too

I am currently looking for different scholarships to get into collage for songwritting, and overall music. I have heard that there are some ones that are really simple, Problem is finding them. So if you have any info pleeeeeeezzzzzzz!!!! help!

Peace&Love
Sarah~*~

tonight i am running away
tonight i wanna leave my past behind
Its just bringing me down

there is no way to break free
unless you're with me

the clock is ticking and its running out
I try to think about how things are going to be
no more clouds of sorrow amd misery

you have lifted me up to be me again
I am never turning back
this is just the begining


You made me open my eyes, and look around
I have finally found myself thanks to you
Im letting go of everything that i thought i knew
my past is my past, your the future of me
i know that as long as i have you
whatever, may be, will be.
thanks to you

I have opened my eyes from love's nightmare
I can see myself in the mirror
and as strange as it seems I have known that girl all along
she just had to be set free
you have shattered the past and painted tomarrow
when i see you i see me.

chorus

all that is left is the glass pieces of my memories
and i am finally happy

chorus

thanks to you (x's 3)


*************keep me posted!

At night when i close my eyes
I try to dream
A nightmare haunts me
I hold the covers close
And plead for it to end
my mind keeps chasing me
running me away from
what i love and thought was real

[[ WAKE UP
   im falling
   OPEN UP
   im holding to much in
   SICK OF
   all life's twisted lies
   SCREAM AT
   the top of my lungs
   no one seems to hear me
   im drowning in this nightmare]]

When I open my eyes
your holding me tight
arms around me as i tremble
scared it was all real
You tell me its okay its only a dream
images flood my mind
Its only a matter of time
till i have to sleep again

[[chorus]]

I woke up this morning gripping my pillow tight
The tears keep streaming
something isnt right
your arms are cold
they aren't around me
no one to tell me its all just a dream
everything is what it seems

[[chorus]]

and everytime i dream it you die again
and evertime i see it, it tears me up inside
holding the memory of you deep inside
love burns my eyes

your my love, your my nightmare (3xs)